the magic touch

Downloading Barbie movies

Yeah.. so last week I found this movie called "Princess charm school" which happens to be a barbie movie and... well I was looking for a "feel good movie" to make me smile and be silly cause I felt like I wanted to be smiley and silly lol. Don't ask me how I landed there cause I honestly don't remember, but yesterday a buddy from school (who happens to be in my work group) lost his backpack (well we think it got stolen, but he insists someone in the bus must have taken it by mistake). Bare in mind that this guy is the poster child of what mexican women over the age of 40 think a man should look like.

Ever seen a mexican movie featuring the revolution or independence? If you have, then you might be familiar with the stereotype I'm taking about, my mother used to call it "pancho villa" who she incidentally also said was my father, not that other guy she hooked up with in highschool and kept dating in med school. Anyway, big beefy guy with a mustache to shame all other mustaches, a gun or two and bullets coming out of his ears sort of guy. Yeah, take the bullets and guns away and shave the mustache (only cause the school made him), add a Military style backpack and you've got the guy I'm talking about. Though to be fair, the "macho" in the movies is... well kind of an asshole to women.

This guy in the other hand is a sweetheart, he lives downtown (a little farther from the school than myself in the same direction) and every freaking day he wakes up at 3am (don't ask me how, I'm dying waking up at 4:30) and gets his ass down to the place where I take the bus down to the subway (I could just take the subway close to my place but then I waste time and it seems more dangerous than to just take the bus to the subway) and gets on it with me so I can feel safer going to school with a guy like that firmly attached to my arm ((not because I've gone straight but because at that time the subway is freaking packed and if either of us lets go we're not seeing each other again until class lol). Then once we've successfully gotten to school he proceeds to wait at the bus stop with me until all the other females of our group make their way to us before we all get in the bus.

We do have 2 other guys in our group but they're kind of asshole-ish to the straight girls so we don't wait for them. As we go through class we all do our own thing in our little group, but when school ends he once again gravitates toward me (this time he does not attatch though cause he doesn't want other people to think he's my boyfriend cause he knows I'm gay and he thinks it'd be uncomfortable for me... did I mention he's a sweetheart?) and we all go back to our respective homes as together as possible (cause our group happens to live all over the darn map lol), however, he does accompany me all the way to my stop before he reverts to his own.

Now back to barbie, since he misplaced his backpack a friend of ours who happens to have kids of her own didn't like the idea of this guy having to ask his dad for another backpack (his very big, rather intimidating dad) so yesterday after school we went to her home and after feeding us and digging around her kids' room for a while she came up with a perfectly acceptable replacement for his lost backpack. A large, manly, evil looking Barbie princess backpack (I literally fell off my chair when I saw him blush at the thought of walking around with that thing hanging on his back).

He ended up taking it because of our insistence. So of course I had to ask him to come over and watch the movie in question with me, and we ended up having a great time. So good in fact that he's currently asleep in my living room cuddling with my dog.

Now, he's kind of in-like with me despite the fact that I'm gay and have no plans of changing that and he actually doesn't mind so long as I don't mind. And being the "desmadre" that I am, I don't mind. But to be honest, if there was ever a guy whom I might someday go out with, this would be him. He's 24 so not jail bait and HE CAN ACTUALLY PICK ME UP... I mean c'mon! lol.

This post was originally meant to be about the barbie movie I watched and how I didn't actually even play with barbies when I was little cause I didn't like dolls at first, and then when I tried them out due to grown up preassure (yeah my aunts kept giving me them) my mother took them away and made my aunts give me the stuff I actually wanted rather than what they wanted me to want. Mostly because she wanted to be a good mother, but also (and she only told me this when I was old enough to drink legally) because I was apparently rather disturbing when playing with them. And if you've ever even read a disclaimer in my fanfics you'd know what she meant by that. XD

Baby me shipping (that kind of) slash before I even knew how to write wahahahaha
Shigu perv

Feeling good

Writing fanfiction again and feeling good. Updated What makes a rose a little (real update probably wont be done for another week or so though... been writing like crazy lately for no apparent reason

Also got back into school and getting stuff done again. Looking to get other stuff in order too. Seem I'm a tiger after all :)
Nothing's going up my ass today

Bitter aftertaste?

You know how sometimes you're in a high at your personal life but you don't realize it until much later?.

I'm experiencing that right now, after haven't recently contacted/been contacted by some old friends who I used to love to talk to, and an ex GF who was awesome before and during our time together.

Ex GF gone sour, to the point that I found myself yelling at her in the phone earlier, she claims a lot of crap went down that didn't and is asking for help getting out of trouble, fat chance of that after how we ended it.

Talked to a friend a couple of days ago, she's gone so utterly mushy and cheesy over her "new found love" that it become impossible to talk to her, never mind that the girl in question (my friends gf) is fcking ugly, fat, stupid, mediocre and ugly. Way to go buddy! That one's a keeper for sure!.... WTF? How do you talk to someone who's stupidly in love with someone who is so far beneath her she wont even agree to be her full time gf?

Second friend, I talked to today.... we used to have tons of fun conversing, now she cuts off any chance of fun having, its been coming for a while, we've been on and off talking in spells of months vs days where she only had bad crap going on, I figured a good buddy sticks through that and tries to help, even when it lasted a year or two, wtv. But now that she's in a place she's been looking to be in for some years, she'sdissmissive, boring and comes across as bitter.

I have no need for these kinds of people in my life, I want the fun, the playful, the enjoyable, I don't mind it when people have issues in their life, I'm a damned good friend, but I can't deal with a lifetime of boring. I'm someone with whom people can talk about their shitty asss life and have me agree with them, or laugh for hours without a particular reason. That's who I like to be to people, the girl/guy with whom people can have fun, rage or cry with, but I need the variety.

I guess all I'm saying is that change sucks, and it sucks even more when people you care about become shitty bastards.

Shigu perv

Writing again!

I am writing again at last!

Well, that's partly a lie, I never stopped writing per se, I just hadn't had any brilliant ideas, no new ideas at all, actually. I have been constantly looking to improve what I already wrote, not necessarily because I enjoyed it, but because I thought I could improve it. That and because I really just couldn't do much else.

But at last I seem to be able to get back on the writing saddle. This time though I'm going for something way out of my comfort line. I'm writing a Shiznat fic with rape, hot iron branding, forced choices, gas lighting, forceful body part removal and a lot more screwed up situations. An all around abusive fic in the name of "science" and "reality shows" in a way. A strange mixture of Hostel (minus the blood whoring), Senseless (, Urban Legend-ish Japanese Game Shows and Shiznat.

Yeah, confusing. I know, but I have no better way to describe it.

I'm also going to start looking for a seour among the people who have tried to contact me. Some people hinted at me, but at the time I was too out of it to notice. Then again I'm usually too out of it to notice things unless they're in my face lol.

Looking for a beta, doubt I'll find it. I know no one who likes that kinda thing. I mean I don't even like it! But as always, i write what comes to me, the way it comes to me, or as best as I can translate it from my head to my fingers.
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    uncomfortable uncomfortable

(no subject)

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and I keep on breaking more
and it looks like I am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder I could disengage
if I were any older I could act my age
but I dont think that youd believe me
it's just the way the operation made me
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that I ate
came a couple years too late
and I've got some issues to work through
there I go again
pretending to be you
that I have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

I am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
I might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
I was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
I am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that I'm sorry that I asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but I might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believing you're immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

I dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so I might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
I was too precarious removed as a cesarean
behold the worlds worst accident

Guess what????

Yup, I'm still working on my fic.... even if I started it back in 2006, TODAY I posted chapter 7 and already have about a quarter of chappy 8 written along with the plot all the way to 9 figured out (and placed neatly within Nico's head so I wont forget it again lol)...

What Makes a Rose.......... LIVESSSSSSSSS lawl

Already 35 hits.... on that ONE chapter I added a couple of hours ago lol.... I feel huuuuuuuuge!!!

Twilight Twilight....

No Spoilers here

Any "Twilight" fans out there dying to see the new movie?

Well, go green on envy.........

Tepito (Mexican Meca for illegal copies of EVERYTHING) has had the movie out for TWO WEEKS already!!! How'd you like THAT? lol....

And YES its DVD quality!!! none of that "taped at a theater" BS

If half the effort these people put on getting these things out there was put into producing them, movies would cure cancer and rid you of aids by now.... by just watching them lol.

Its amazing what these people can do, it is....

I need you

I need friends... I need someone to talk to... someone who will talk to ME not volk, not sak, not volky, not the fanfic writer, not the onee-sama, not the rose, not the guild leader..... just ME

Would you listen to me?
Would you ask and keep asking until I answer?
Would you care...?
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    gloomy ...

Birthday coming up....

Ahhhh my lj....

its been a while since I updated here (tho I still keep very active on some comms....)

however the time is coming when everyone asks me "what do you want?" and as usual, Imma write a list for that...

(And not it aint cheating XD)

LJ renew (my poor extra pics are going away T_T) ideally I'd like both the extra pics and the paid account thing, but you know....

And a 20Q bot that I already know Nico is getting me....

and a dinner at ittaliannis that I somehow think Imma be buying for myself (since no one seems to love that restaurant the way I do)..... really this is all I want for my bday....

If I were to get greedy, I'd love a phone call from those that know I miss them, including my tiny chibi who I haven't talked to in so freakin long....

Last I knew she was in spain >.>

Anywho.... hope you're all doing good with your lives and have them full of love and yuri...

much <3

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Here's to all vegan people...

You vegans claim to not use ANY animal products or consume them in any way.... right?

I wonder this because for some reason when I walk down the street I don't see any naked people... and when you write in your journals you never mention spending time in jail for your lack of clothing or how cold you get... or even how you hate being unable to go anywhere if not on your bicycle or walking... because as you all know, the clothes you wear are created on sewing machines that use electricity created from coal and oil and those come from dead dinosaurs... so technicaly you shouldn't drive a car or go on the bus or take cabs, or use electricity at all, or even own a computer... >.>....